Foreign. That’s the only word I have to describe how this feels right now – foreign. So many months have passed since I last tried to flesh out my thoughts in any place other than my journal and the words definitely aren’t flowing like they used to. But they will, I have faith in that. Time and practice will be the cure for this, so bear with me as I try to apply a little of both to my current wordless situation.
I’m hoping that this little space and what I write here will help me to become steady, my word for 2015. It may not be so awe-inspiring, but for right now, for 2015, a little steady is exactly what I need. I don’t want to constantly be on a spiritual roller-coaster, at the highest of heights one minute and down in the depths the next. I know that highs and lows are inevitable, but I want to be constantly rooted in Christ. I want him to be my anchor and I need him to be my anchor. So that even when those inescapable heights and depths come they do not dictate my faithfulness to Him.
This is a year in which I’m hoping to fully step into all that God has intended me to be. It’s a long story as to why, and maybe someday I’ll share a little of it here, but basically I have spent my whole life being afraid to be exactly who God created me to be. And I know we all start out the new year with resolutions which have usually fallen to the wayside by the time the first week is over, but my resolve on this one isn’t going to fade. So here’s to being steady in 2015. We may not escape the highs and lows of everyday life but we can be firmly rooted and steady in God’s infallible grace.
Be blessed always,